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Mr Wrong in The Voice

I was lucky to have a stint in The Voice Paper. Here it is!

How To Find Mr Right And Say Goodbye To Mr Wrong

LOVE LESSONS: Daniella Blechner

THEY SAY a problem shared is a problem halved, and this old adage has proved particularly lucrative for self-published author, Daniella Blechner.

Using a collection of memoirs from a number of scorned women (and some men) from around the world, Blechner put together Mr Wrong: Learn From Mr Wrong and Claim Mr Right, a self-help book with a twist.

“I don’t believe in rules, or x plus x equals this or that every woman will have the same outcome if they follow the same steps because we’re all different,” she said. “I wanted to create book, first and foremost, as a platform for women to have their voices and stories heard.”

The author, from South East London, explained: “Mr Wrong is a collection of stories written by women from all across the world who seem to keep encountering the same sort of man – men who are unavailable. You know the ones, the guy with multiple names, multiple girlfriends, past baggage, the ones who will time and time again, avoid commitment! [The book] aims to dispel myths about relationships created by society and ones we place on ourselves.”

In fact, Blechner used her own “disastrous” experience in a previous relationship to inspire the book, her first foray into publishing.

“In the past, I wouldn’t speak about the things that went wrong in my relationships, I felt ashamed and worried what friends would think. I buried it all, but I found that once I started to share my story with people, it was actually quite healing.”

After getting her head around blogging and sharing some of her experiences on the popular online platform, the 35-year-old found there was a market for people who had experienced similar pain in their quest for Mr Right.

“A lot of Americans started gravitating towards the blog and started telling their stories, so I put an appeal out asking for women to contact me and share their Mr Wrong stories and I was inundated with stories from America, Canada, UK, Australia and it just kind of happened from there.”

She noticed that from many of the submissions that “most women were entering relationships to complete something within themselves rather than going in as a whole person and loving themselves.”

“Quite often, these women came into relationships expecting the other person to fix them,” she said.

“Another one was repeating past issues. There were quite a lot of women who had an absent father, which is a whole book in itself; those who have a fear of abandonment and look to men to fix their fear, but what they don’t realise that you’ll get men who will go off and abandon you until that situation has been completely healed.”

Though Blechner is quick to point out that she is not a qualified counsellor or relationship coach (in fact, she’s an English tutor by day), she is passionate about empowering and providing support for women.

“Like I said, I just wanted to give women a platform to speak about their stories. This book is not about me telling people what to do,” she clarified.

“The first thing I want to establish is that Mr Wrong is not a how-to book. I am not a dating expert and I am not interested in telling women how to date and how to have a relationship because I believe there are an abundance of books, of which I have read.”

In that sense, Blechner says she thinks fairytales have a lot to answer for.

“There are a lot of women growing up who are indoctrinated by that stuff,” she said. “There’s a sense of ‘you are a princess, but you’re nobody until Mr Right finds you to come and sweep you off your feet and make you a complete person’.”

She then draws reference to a story shared by a male contributor in Mr Wrong whose relationship ended because his partner was hoping he had the key to her completion.

“He says it’s attractive when a woman knows her worth and that really stuck with me. I don’t think I expected that. When you know your worth, you resonate with men who are attracted to that. When you don’t, I think you can let anything in.”

It was a two-year journey getting Mr Wrong to its final destination, which came with numerous rejection letters, self-publishing hurdles and navigating a competitive industry she had no prior experience in. But, she says, it added more character to the sojourn.

“Rejection letters came in and after three or four months it started to get to me, but someone close to me said, ‘Think about [Harry Potter] author JK Rowling and how many rejection letters she had. Don’t let anyone tell you, you can’t do it.’ That ultimately sent me on the path of discovering the world of self-publishing. It hasn’t been easy, but it has been worth it.”

She added: “From the age of four, I would say, ‘I’m going to be a writer, but I’ll do it later in life’. [I would say], ‘I want to save the world, save dogs, save everything and then I’ll write a book.’ But I left the animals and saving the world, it’s too hard. I found my calling in writing.

The Mr Wrong Book Tour kicks off on Feb 12 at Hounslow Library and continues at Brixton Library on Feb 13 and Croydon Waterstones on Feb 14. For more details, visit: http://tinyurl.com/qbgh7af

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Mr Wrong Book Tour is Here!

The Mr Wrong Book Tour is here!

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Come and join host Lillian Ogbogoh and author Danni Blechner in a lively debate on Love and Relationships and listen to real life relationship stories from men and women.

“I wrote this book not to preach, teach or tell women how to “date” but to unite us through our stories, inspire us to let go of baggage and empower us by breaking free from negative belief systems and discovering our True Selves.”- a note from the author

This is event is in support of Women’s Aid providing safety for women and children survivors of domestic abuse.

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12th Feb, 6pm-7.30pm HOUNSLOW LIBRARY
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13TH Feb 7pm-9pm BRIXTON LIBRARY £3 (FREE glass of wine on entry. DJ James Wilkins spinning tunes.
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14th Feb 12pm- 2pm WATERSTONES CROYDON
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More on Mr Wrong..

MR WRONG COVER 650Do you ever feel that you will never meet the right man? Do your relationships suddenly come to an end leaving you in a wake of dust wondering what just happened or what you could have possibly done to deserve such a swift exit? Do you attract the same type of man repeating the same negative patterns and situations that leave you  thinking, “Here We Go Again?” or “I’ve been here before?” Are you dating men who love you and leave you leaving you emotionally wounded and insecure, wondering why you didn’t cut the mustard? Well, ladies, I have news for you. You do! You are simply dating the wrong man.

My name is Daniella Blechner and I am the author of a book called Mr Wrongwritten after a decade of bad luck with the opposite sex. I no longer make a secret of it and claim it to empower others. Faced with a string of dating disasters, I had no choice but to look within. On my quest to find out what Love really is, I realised that our inner world reflects our outer world and we must Love ourselves before we can truly Love another. I went on a quest to interview women and men around the world and documented their relationship stories.

Mr Wrong is a collection of both humorous and poignant stories written by women who have encountered and overcome the infamous ‘Mr Wrong,’ stories that celebrate men who are getting it right as well as stories from men themselves. From Ex-Mr Wrongs to Men struggling to survive in their “Knight in Shining Armour role” the book reveals men’s innermost secrets, thoughts and feelings on relationships and women. What role do women play in creating so called Mr Wrongs? Mr Wrong allows the reader to question, examine and challenge negative belief systems that block us from having successful relationships with others as well as ourselves. Through interactive exercises, meditations and questionnaires this book is designed to allow the reader to embark on a journey of self-discovery.

Extraordinary Woman- Featuring Ava Brown

Ava Brown

Ava Brown

Ava –Gaye Sandra- Lee Brown MBA, BBA, Dip. Ed.

Ava Brown is the author of the book “Bamboo & Fern” her recently published biography. She is a woman of many talents and is a Speaker, Trainer, Coach and Global Business Development Manager. She received her 2nd MBA from The University of Wales and her 1st from Newport University California. Ava also has a Bachelor in Business Administration and a Diploma in Secondary Education from the University of the West Indies Mona, Jamaica.

Over the years Ava has worked in a wide variety of professional capacities namely: education, finance, maritime, telecoms and business development before deciding to embark on her own business. She currently works as a coach, mentor, and motivational speaker as well as helping businesses develop and grow. In addition to her multiple work activities, Ava is a regular contributor to the education magazine Be Magazine published in West Africa and The Children Hope Newspaper on topics such as “Hope for this Generation“, “Location and Education” to name a few. She is actively involved in assisting African students in accessing tertiary education in the UK, via distance learning. She is now in the process of collaborating with friends to publish the anticipated recipe book with her favourite treats.

Reading and writing and of course music given her strong Jamaican background. Ava is an extremely motivated and driven individual who now resides in London with her daughter Chardonae Elizabeth and son Mikhel Kai.
She lives by the motto that “sometimes life will throw you down however; you must find the will power to pull yourself up above your circumstances.” She believes that everything is about correct timing and tapping into the Universe for that which you need. Opportunities will knock, but we have to be able to recognize them and take full advantage.
Bamboo and Fern Ava BrownBamboo and Fern documents Ava’s life growing up in Jamaica. From mango seller to gaining an MBA, Ava Brown turned her life around, overcame adversity and poverty. Her story starts in a poor rural area, where the need to find food often won out over school attendance and follows her journey through her adolescent years, which were encased in the dark shadows of incest and sexual abuse, to her young adult years when the event of being held at gunpoint finally led her to flee her home country in order to save her sanity. Yet, her resilience and love for her native country allowed her to see all of her harsh and disappointing experiences as stepping stones to becoming a strong and self-reliant woman, one who is capable of helping our society to break the cycle of poverty and its effects.

Bamboo and Fern can be purchased through WHSMITH and Amazon or better still, you can get a SIGNED COPY via her website.

She can be contacted at info@avabrown.org or www.avabrown.org

You are such a motivated and determined woman. What keeps you motivated?

I am motivated by not wanting my kids to have the life and legacy I was left with as a child and even as an adult. Seeing people overcome obstacles and pick themselves up spur me on and gives me great joy.

As a coach, what would you advise women who are stuck in a rut with the men they choose or the relationships they are in?

As someone who knows how this feels I would say if it isn’t working don’t keep trying to make it work; life is far too precious and valuable to be wasted. Love is meant to be something blissful for the most part. If he causes you hassle, get out. I have recently coached women as to how to get out of a rut in my latest webinar Get Out of the Rut, which provides some simple proven set of strategies that can change your life and break the overwhelming feeling of non-progress- uselessness and non-achievement in your life. You can download the CD here for free at Get Out of The Rut.

 

Why do you think some women continually choose Mr Wrong?

I think its loneliness, societal pressure that at a certain age you must be hitched, financial reasons e.g. expensive cities like London and low self-esteem. These in my view are some of the reasons- though not exhausted as I am sure there are many other reasons for choosing Mr Wrong. I am hoping to have Mr Wright (Right) find me one day soon.

Your book Bamboo and Fern is incredibly inspirational, what inspired you to write it?

I didn’t set out to write a book at all. I grew up in Jamaica where kids were seen and not heard and I had so much I wanted to say. I was a chatterbox essentially, yet, I would not dare utter some of it, so I started keeping a diary and as I got older it almost sort of became my best friend, it didn’t share my secrets, thoughts or feelings with anyone. It was safe.

By the time I found myself pregnant with my daughter the diary was used more and had now become a permanent part of my life. In 2002 when I moved to the UK and with some amount of trauma, I wanted to share some of my experiences. I felt I had something to say, it wasn’t now just about a cathartic outlet anymore. I felt many other women could resonate with aspects of my story and so I took my diary more seriously. That’s how I ended up with the book Bamboo & Fern out of my life experiences really.

Without giving too much away in the book, what is the most challenging obstacle you’ve had to overcome and how did you overcome it?

My most challenging obstacle was perhaps dealing with being held up at gunpoint in Jamaica. I migrated essentially as a coping mechanism and the sought help in the UK in the form of therapy, calling the gunman and having that dreaded conversation.
What do you feel are your biggest achievements?

Since the launch of my book, I have had a few, from being featured on Jamaicans most watched and prestigious TV show Profile to being featured in the Financial Times however, I have three great achievements that truly mean the world to me namely: being a mom, graduating with an MBA (considering my background), but also finishing my book and actually seeing it in people’s hands, on the shelves and thankfully the reviews; it’s priceless. From the list, being mom and my book are my proudest achievements. My kids mean everything to me. They are the reason I work so hard. I want them to have a better life than I had.

What’s in your handbag?

I carry large handbags always, except on the occasions when I need an evening bag. As a mother there is always, wipes, my diary, my tablet, my book of course, sunshades, business cards and pencil case. There will be mints and my purse always has a cheque I have written to myself for £600,000 that I hope to cash in one day soon.  Something I’ve practiced ever since I read The Secret.
What would you advise other budding authors just starting out who say they’ll “like to write a book but…?”

Start writing, get your ideas on paper regardless of how silly you may think it sounds, there is a story in all of us and you are the best person to tell it. There is an audience waiting to hear from you, but if it’s not written how will they hear your voice and understand your message?

If you could go back and give your five year old self a pep talk or give her some advice what would you say?

Don’t be deflated if no one believes in your dream, the only supporter you need is you and don’t be afraid of criticism and rejection, just keep going and the right links will be made at the correct time to believe, support and elevate you.
Finally, what’s next for Ava Brown and her projects?

Gosh there is so much from Part 2 of my bio Indomitable which is out in Q3 2015, to my Coaching & Mentoring Programmes, Motivational Speaking and Collaborative work with other great people in my field. I also have plans to get partners in on my dream to open a Safe home in Jamaica for kids who suffered abuse like I did , but had no place to run to.

You can contact Ava at: www.avabrown.org

Twitter: @avabrown24

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Extraordinary Woman- featuring Amanda Epe

Amanda Epe

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Amanda Epe, author of Fly Girl

Amanda is the author of travel memoir A Fly Girl that was flying in the Best Seller list since its release date in November. As a writer, she has also contributed to several anthologies and press reports. Amanda is a blogger and lead for Ms Rose Blossom, a project that encourages girls and women in promoting health/well-being and literature. She is also employed as a Health Trainer in the NHS.

Amanda is also a much valued contributor and author of her story I’m Guilty on Three Counts in Mr Wrong and has contributed her poems How Do I Love Thee? and How Do I Love Thee Like a Rose? in poetry anthology 7 Shades of Love where she talks eloquently on Self Love and valuing herself as a woman. This too, is evident in her contributions such as Brighter Days for African Beauty in Nicole Moore’s anthologies Brown Eyes and Hair Power-Skin Revolution focusing on identity and race.

Amanda’s Fly Girl, is a witty, adventurous and candid account of her experiences as an air stewardess. From rising above racism, to breaking the mould, to witnessing the stark contrasts of wealth, poverty, racism and acceptance, she takes us on an unforgettable journey.

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A Fly Girl, Amanda Epe

A Fly Girl can be purchased via Amazon  and Waterstones

For a SIGNED copy contact Amanda atmail@msroseblossom.org

Website: www.msroseblossom.org

How does your work with Ms Rose Blossom impact young women?

Ms Rose Blossom’s work is duo-dimensional. The work impacts the lives of young women from being influential in building self-esteem to talking about sexual health taboo topics; all via creative communications in creative writing and workshops and speaking at events.

What inspired you to set up Ms Rose Blossom?

A number of life experiences have contributed to the innovation of Ms Rose Blossom. Firstly, my service in schools and colleges when I was employed to mentor and teach students with Special Needs as well as ‘mainstream’ pupils, then my work in programme development for economic empowerment of marginalised women. I realised that there are a group of women that were marginalised and needed to be targeted and coached and given extra support in areas such as self-esteem, self-image and sexual health

 

FGM practices are still going on and many young girls are being taken abroad to have this procedure done. Can you explain what FGM is and what is being done to educate these girls and their families about their rights/this harmful practise?

FGM stands for Female Genital Mutilation involving the cutting of the clitoris and other genital parts. This is practised on both babies and young women for non medical purposes and mainly to chastise women. There are a number of charities and individuals working as activists, educators and psychotherapists who work with affected communities and also inform the general public for safeguarding purposes, such organisations include 28 Too Many, Integrate Bristol, Daughters of Eve, and key speakers like Alimatu Dimonekene and Hilary Burrage who have fought for years to safeguard girls in education authorities. Ms Rose Blossom contributes to FGM awareness by talking to individuals from affected communities, being a point of call and signposting through the blog and also speaking at community events.

Having been a contributor in Mr Wrong what would you advise women who constantly attracted and accepted men who were emotionally unavailable?

Women need to step back and take a look at their relationship as if an outsider is viewing them. When we keep repeating the same mistake obviously we are not learning and then we start blaming. If I were to advise, I can draw from my own experiences and study my self-worth to see where I am guilty in failed relationships.

What inspired you to write and contribute the story Guilty on 3 Counts?

It was the first time I had written and shared anything on the nature of love and relationships. I was inspired to write on this topic because it would also be a learning curve for me. As a memoirist I have learnt a lot from reflective writing, and it was quite essential to share as other woman may relate and learn from my story too.

Did you learn anything about yourself during the Mr Wrong process?

It was when I wrote that story that I understood a lot of my psychological traits and looked at my patterns. I gained further insight when the book was published and I was in the category of emotionally unavailable and looking deeper, I found that quite accurate and a hard hitting wake up call.

You have recently published your own book called Fly Girl which is very exciting; can you tell us what inspired you to write the book?

The love of writing and creativity was the initial inspiration to join the travel industry. Whilst the inspiration for the book came from a number of factors, I became confident in sharing my writing as a contributor to Nicole Moore’s Shangwe anthologies, Brown Eyes and Hair Power- Skin Revolution. Later, I was inspired by other writer’s progress including Daniella’s Mr Wrong book, and as a reader and writer of true stories I knew that it was time to write mine.

What was your biggest challenge as an air stewardess?

I learnt a lot from my writing my book. At the time my biggest challenge would have been being different, but now I am clear that being different is a grand thing; standing out or not fitting in is unique. So my biggest challenge was my mindset. With a positive mind all challenges are minimised.

What was your most memorable event?

After writing the book, I am now grateful for many magic moments in my memory; to be safe after the fear of being lost in LA, and fun in the USA, but most memorable was being part of a national rescue squad. In 1998 I was part of a cabin crew rescue squad rescuing civilians who were affected by the riots in Jakarta. For more info buy A Fly Girl!

What’s next for Amanda Epe?

I am pleased to be invited by UN Women to start the New Year speaking at an Inspirational Women event at The House of Parliament. In 2015, I share my story with 29 awesome co-authors in a forthcoming book called Born for This where we share our journeys of failure to success in the areas of life, love and business. I will also be playing a key part in The Mr Wrong Book Tour where I will be sharing my story, performing my poems and speaking about personal love and relationships in libraries and Waterstones across London from 12-14th February. I encourage readers to go after their dreams in this self help writing. I intend to continue with inspirational stories for women and the growth of Blossom Books.

How can we keep up to date with you?

I can be reached on social media through Google+, Twitter and Facebook

MR WRONG OFFICAL BOOK COVER REVEALED!

It is with great excitement, I present to you the official Mr Wrong book cover. Get ready for a Sept/October launch. Please sign up to newsletter to get updates about progress of book and exciting events. Cover is designed by the amazing Sunny Tellone http://www.sunnytellone.com

Much love and gratitude towards anyone who have shown me support on this journey.

Daniella xx

 

MrWrong Back and Front

 

Blurb

Do you ever feel as though you will never meet the right man? Are your relationships leaving you wondering what you’re doing wrong? Do you attract the same type of man, repeating the same negative patterns over and over again? If you find yourself thinking “Here we go again” or “I’ve been here before”, if you’re dating men who love you and leave you emotionally wounded and insecure, or if you’re wondering why you just can’t seem to get it right, I have news for you. You are simply dating the wrong men.

 

Mr. Wrong is an insightful and witty exploration into why some women continually attract the wrong men. This powerful collection of humorous, insightful, and entertaining stories are written by women from across the world that have encountered and overcome toxic Mr. Wrong relationships.

 

Mr. Wrong gives women the courage to turn their pain into Power and their adversities into Opportunities. It also gives space for celebrating Mr. Right by acknowledging men’s valuable relationship stories too. Do men get a bad rap? What role do women play in creating Mr. Wrong? Are we victims of our past, social conditioning or are we simply re-enacting negative belief systems? Open up and learn from Mr. Wrong and Claim Mr. Right by making a change from within.

Would You Like a Dedication in the Mr Wrong Book?

Would you like a dedication in Mr Wrong? Would you like an excerpt, poem or free book or even a special feature on my blog? Then please donate to the Mr Wrong Crowd Fund appeal. My challenge is to raise £1000 in 18 days. So far I have £405…. The costs will go towards: *publishing costs £199 initial , *distribution, *editing,*proofreading *book cover design *author page *book review *marketing plan.
As most of you know, I set up this blog nearly two years ago with the view to write a book called Mr Wrong. I am proud to say that that book is now finally complete and it is finally time to give birth to something that is designed to unite, inspire and empower. Please see my campaign below. Let’s make it happen!
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Short Summary

My name is Daniella Blechner and after two years, have finally completed writing  a book called Mr Wrong (73’000 words.) Mr Wrong comes after a decade of bad luck with the opposite sex. I no longer make a secret of it and claim it to empower others. Mr Wrong is a  collection of stories and experiences written by women who have encountered Mr Wrong. The aim of the book is to empower, inspire and unite women by sharing our stories. It’s time to stop blaming and berating ourselves by getting  rid of Mr Wrong and claiming Mr Right! Men also have their say in the book, allowing the book to explore a balanced view of the role both men and women have in relationships. Are men given a bad rap? What role do women play?

The book is a self-help relationship book that allows the reader to interact through exercise, quizzes and meditations. It questions belief systems, explores the Power of Forgiveness and the importance of Loving, Blessing and Letting Go of old baggage. It is a book of journeying and self discovering.

As someone, who has experienced Mr Wrong a few times now, this book is close to my heart. . I want to share what I have learnt and give the opportunity for women and men all over the world to share their experiences too. The book and the stories it contains will make you laugh, make you cry and above all think. By contributing to the publishing of this book, you will be part of allowing hundreds or even thousands of potential readers to have access to these deeply personal and inspiring stories of empowerment, self discovery and change. This in turn, will allow them insight  into how to create positive changes and attract healthy relationships into their own lives. We are stronger than we think!

THE IMPACT: Mr Wrong takes both women and men on a journey of self-discovery allowing them to question their roles within relationships. Through exercises and affirmations it allows the reader to acknowledge any negative belief systems and prepare themselves for a more positive path ahead. Please read an excerpt here: Chapter 12: Start With You. https://dingdongitsmrwrong.wordpress.com/2013/08/22/chapter-2-start-with-you-2/

What We Need & What You Get

I will need £1000 to publish the book. I have selected a self publishing company that has already agreed to contribute some of the money as they can see the potential of the book. The £1000 will go towards:

*Cover design

*Editing

*Proof reading

*PR and Marketing plan

* Distribution

* Publication and proof copy

PERKS!

All contributors will receive a free excerpt from the book plus a poem. Contributors who contribute £15+ will recieve a free copy of the book Mr Wrong and a dedication in the book. £25+ A free copy of Mr Wrong and a free copy of poetry anthology book 7 Shades of Love £50+ TWO copies of Mr Wrong . All of the above and an opportunity to feature on my blog dingdongitsmrwrong.wordpress.com promoting their business

Other Ways You Can Help

I understand that not everybody will be able to contribute financially. If this project appeals to you and you can see the benefit of such a book, please know that you can play a part in spreading the word about the book and this funding scheme.  You can:

Follow my Blog https://dingdongitsmrwrong.wordpress.com/about/ and share with others.

“Like” the Mr Wrong FaceBook page and share posts https://www.facebook.com/dingdongitsmrwrong?ref=hl

Follow me on twitter and tweet about the fund https://twitter.com/dingdongmrwrong

Blog about the Mr Wrong appeal and share this page with others.

I thank you in advance for you kind help and support in this project. All support and donations no matter how large or small are greatly appreciated.

CLICK ON THE LINK TO DONATE AND CLAIM YOUR PERK:

Daniella Blechner- author of Mr Wrong

  Daniella Blechner- author of Mr Wrong

Are You Still Single? The Final Instalment !!!

Are You Still Single? The Final Instalment!!

Episode- Always the Bridesmaid Never the Bride

PLEASE NOTE. THIS IS NOT PART OF THE OFFICIAL MR WRONG BOOK BUT A FICTIONAL SHORT STORY CREATED TO COMPLIMENT THEMES WITHIN.

emotionbaggageIt was time to face the music. I lugged my suitcase down the hotel corridor. I had some serious making up to do and it wasn’t going to be an easy feat. Somehow, last night’s fit of passion gave me the courage and conviction I needed to set things right. Poor Aunty Mildred. She hadn’t deserved my wrath. As bitter and bewildering as she is, she is still my Aunty. She’d looked after me from Day 1, taking place of mother when she passed away. It must have been tough. She lived in a loveless marriage and now lived in state of constant mourning and consumption of red wine. I should be supporting her and pitying her. If it meant the occasional criticism of so be it. Where had this new found compassion come from? “Love conquers all!” I felt my heart jump inside.

I was going to set things right and embark on a new chapter of Love with my Mr Right!

I knocked on the door.

No answer.

I knocked again.

Silence

“Aunty Mildred.”

Quiet.

“Aunty Mildred?”

I waited a few moments.

Perhaps she’d gone down to breakfast.

I wondered down stealing myself.

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I stood before the breakfast crowd guests glancing around for my poor Aunty Mildred.

She was nowhere to be seen.

“If you’re looking for your Aunty Mildred, she’s gone,” she said.

It was Anna’s mother. She stood, lips pursed and nose upturned, looking at me as though I was nothing more than a mere atom.

I’d got to get out of there.

I decided upon having a bowl of cornflakes before my departure.

As I began filling up, suddenly there he was.

Stephen.

He was standing beside me filling up a glass full of orange juice.

“Morning,” I smiled.

A friendly face at last.

He simply stared at me blankly and walked off as if he’d never seen me before in his life.

My mind could not comprehend that he’d actually ignored me.

He’d simply ignored me as if I wasn’t there.

I blinked back the tears. That all too familiar pain of rejection began to well up in my heart.

It felt like being dumped all over again.

My heart cried inside but I was determined not to cry.

I deserved it. I was a horrible person. I was horrible to Aunty Mildred, horrible to Andrew all these years and deep down I secretly envied Anna and her privileged life. I was bitter. I was just like Aunty Mildred. I was Aunty Mildred.

I felt eyes boring into my back. As I turned round I caught Andrew’s eyes. He was staring at me intently. That look again.

He smiled at me.

Warm.

Genuine.

He turned back to engage in conversation.

Never had I felt so alone.

As I walked towards a table for two, away from the breakfast guests, I saw Stephen pass the glass of orange juice to his girlfriend. She kissed his lips and he stroked her hair.

I looked away.

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Eating those cornflakes was one of the hardest things I’d ever done. There I was on a table for two, isolated and alone blinking back tears staring at a bowl of cornflakes I neither wanted or desired. My throat was so closed I feared that eating a spoonful would choke me to death and I certainly didn’t need any more attention.

As I lugged my suitcase out the hotel and towards the station, my heart felt like a led weight.

Vanessa-the-Idiot- the one who always falls for the wrong one-been played again.

What was it about me?

I constantly complain about Mr Wrong and guard myself against them by remaining single yet somehow….somehow..I always let them in.

What’s so wrong with me?

Why do I deserve this treatment?

Was it not enough to dump me the first time?

Why did I deserve to be rejected a second time…no not even rejected- ignored!?

I feel for his promises and lies again.

I was always getting it wrong.

What kind of fool was I?

These thoughts replayed in my mind as if on loop.

Tears fell from my eyes as I now sat alone in my carriage awaiting departure.

Kaleidoscopic images of sweethearts locked in loving embraces danced in front of my eyes. I stared wide eyed for fear of blinking out a waterfall.

Why couldn’t that be me?

My eyes now granted me the clarity of vision- I caught sight of something anew.

There he was.

He was standing right in front of me looking right at me.

He mouthed some words.

I couldn’t make them out.

I could hear the beeps going. The train was about to depart.

I opened the window.

“Wonder Woman. Get off the train!”

It was Andrew.

“I’ll give you a lift.”

I hesitated for a second.

After everything I’d done. I insulted his mother, insulted his step-dad, driven away my own Aunty, slept with a man in a relationship.

And yet..and yet he was still here.

I swept up my suitcase and the doors closed behind me.

My baggage remained on the train.

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Written by Daniella Blechner

If you are new to the series check out the story from the start at

Part I